Still Alive!! (Ft. The Croods)

Yo!! Its been pretty good this week, I'm still here so YAY

Not much has changed, but there is so much potential here in B-ville! It's on the brink of... something! Idk I just feel like it's almost there. 

Haha but we had some more sunshine this week which is good. We are working with a lot of less active members and I just LOVE them oh my goodness. I love watching people's hearts soften and I love watching God pull his children out of darkness. I'm grateful He let's me be a part of it! Cuz He doesn't need me, heck He can do whatever He wants! But Hes given us the opportunity to witness these miracles and to be a part of it, to watch and to learn and to grow and to love. It's really cool. 

We also got yelled at this week, so that was awesome. We were having a lesson with a LA and her daughter stormed down the stairs and was like "hi can you please leave my house" (even tho it's her mom's house) and just railed on us, it was intense! Luckily Heavenly Fathers took the reins in that situation and basically forced me to be super kind and gentle to her. Which is NOT what I wanted to do! I was boutta FIGHT. Lol so that was fun. 

We also had a dinner with 4 non members!! It was so cool!! They asked so many sincere questions and we all just talked for literally 2 hours. And they told us they'd be offended if we DIDN'T come back. Oh how the turn tables. 

We also had Exchanges!! And I got to be with ma girl SISTER GOOLD!!! It was so fun. I went to Albany with her and had a blast. They are teaching 15 people!! They're AMAZING!!! And meanwhile in B-ville, sis Cloward handed out 4 copies of the BOM!!! And we have a bunch of return appointments!!! YEET.

I also (oh my goodness the amount of times I use that word) saw my best friend Lee from Willamina!!!!!!! ❤❤❤

My anxiety is still pretty bad (gross), not much of a difference in that but a difference in me. I've been happier this week and I've been able to do the work despite my limitations. And I've always felt so horrible for having anxiety cuz of all the stigmas behind it, you know people just thinking your lazy or you dont have enough faith, and what not. But Heavenly Father has helped me see myself as He sees me. Hes helped me see that my limitations do not define me. Hes helped me understand my anxiety more and that it's not that I lack faith or I'm lazy, but rather that I have a very real illness, just like diabetes or a tumor (shout out to Elder Hollands 'like a Broken Vessel' talk). I am overwhelmed with grace. My heart is almost bursting with Gods love, and I've done nothing to deserve it. God is so good. 

Anyway, love you all!! Thank you for all of your support and love and emails and letters ❤ I'm sorry I cant respond to all of them, but I read and cherish every single one ❤ 

Love 

Syd 

Here's Lee, drawings, me making a chip bag modest, and sis G with a drawing I did of us lol